This year is gonna be hard.
Okay, that’s not really the way that I want to start a blog post but I said I and it’s from my heart and I just had to get it out. I’m tired of keeping it bottled in.
You might be thinking, “What is she talking about?” Let me explain.
This school year is monumental for our family. Bailey, our oldest, graduates High School and Morgan, our youngest, begins High School. Bob and I are just a few years shy of being Empty Nesters.
I must admit that I’m having a hard time with this. I’m not ready for my girls to be older, doing stuff on their own like driving places independent of me and going on dates. I’m not ready for Bailey to head to college next year and Morgan soon after.
I want them in Princess costumes running around watching the TeleTubbies. I want them coming into the kitchen and asking for a bowl of grapes. I want them to need their mommy. Is that too much to ask? (BTW, the picture above was taken on the first day of school. Bailey is on the left and Morgan on the right. Please excuse the mess in the background. Our home is “lived” in.)
I know in my head that this feeling will pass. Other parents tell me it will. I just wish my heart would listen. I trust that it will get there.
I believe that like attracts like and well, I want good things. So, instead of putting all my focus on this, I’ve chosen to accept that no matter what, I can’t change it and to appreciate it. It’s part of our journey in life. We are born and we live life until God calls us home. My parents survived as did theirs and so on and so on.
I’m choosing to concentrate on things that make me happy and that I’m grateful for and I’ve decided to join in on the #100DaysofGratitude posts that you might see on various social media sites. If you would like to join me in filling our social media feeds with positive images and thoughts, I would love to have you join me.
And….if you have any advice for life after children, I would love to have you share with our community.
Thank you for allowing me today to share from my heart and be so transparent.
PS – Must share that after telling my girls how much I will miss them after they move out of their own, they have already told me that they’ll still need me. Hearing that made my heart melt.